Archive for June, 2005

inadequacy

Sunday, June 26th, 2005

Waiting for the rain to come. The earth smells of it. Once there was that one perfect moment, precious, now vanished, yet remembered. They say i should be grateful to have had that once, yet i find myself ever-chasing… each year, a little less real, not much more than fragments, embellished by time. Dawn breaks red on the horizon. The breeze crawls in through an open window, tracing it’s way across skin. I close my eyes and remember. Cherishing the moment. Crossing the chasm of time. The rain begins to fall.

if You only knew

Tuesday, June 14th, 2005

i’m so full of doubt
where i’m going
where i’ve been
finding the words
looking for worth
if You only knew

walking on hot coals
to keep my heart
from turning to ice
i’m not simple
and i’m no fool
if You only knew

You can’t see my eyes
when i’m crying
if You’re sleeping
listen to me
whisper Your name
if You only knew

i’m quiet like the storm
that’s approaching
on the far shore
You’re in my dreams
and i’m in Yours
if You only knew

the rain is falling
my love is near
can you feel it
fade into night
like all my life
if You only knew

The End is but the Beginning

Thursday, June 9th, 2005

She unlocked the door and entered the suite, tipped the bellboy and locked the door behind him. She turned and glanced over at the desk where a teetering pile of mail awaited her. The telegram on top caught her eye. She opened it and quickly scanned the page. It was about what she expected. She tossed the page into the fire burning brightly in the corner fireplace.

She was somewhat amused that it had taken them this long to replace her, but no matter, she had plans of her own. She picked up the receiver and dialed.

“It is done,” she said.

The voice on the other end of the phone said, “And what if anyone comes looking for you?”

She hesitated, thinking. “Tell them I was a mad bitch and that you threw me overboard.” This earned a chuckle on the other end of the line.

“That’s what we’ll tell them, but I’m telling you… if you don’t come back for us one day, we’re going to come looking for you,” the concern in his voice was evident.

“I know.”

“If you need us for anything,” he said in a low soothing voice, “anything at all… you know where to find us.”

She nodded, “Indeed, I do.” She hung up the phone.

For She Who Is Watching

Wednesday, June 8th, 2005

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…and far beyond this world.